There came a day where I thought to myself:
If an almighty entity appeared before me, telling me they could guarantee happiness to the people I love and grant them everything they could ever want in life… but the cost would be my own happiness, that I may never get the things I want… would I agree?
My answer? Yes. Yes I would.
There wasn’t even a shred of doubt.
Admittedly, this is probably quite an odd thing for me to think at… I think I was about 13 or 14… but there it is. 🙂
And to this day, I would still choose the same answer.
I feel lucky to have felt such love for people. And I don’t mean romantic love. I just mean pure, emotional love – that sense of care you feel for family or friends.
Don’t worry. I know to still look after myself. But if I love you, I’m not afraid to sacrifice a little of my own happiness for you to get yours. I can fight. I can take pain. If it means you won’t have to. Because I wouldn’t want you to.
Perhaps it’s a downfall. But I don’t like to believe it is. “Looking after number one” was never a phrase that I could follow.